Thank you for reading this whether it is for yourself or for someone you love.
I am going to share a few things that have helped me along the way with my depression and anxiety. This doesn’t mean that it will magically work for you or your loved one as each journey is different, very unique, and individual.
For me, some days are what people would call a normal mood. Not overjoyed, not sad, just existing with a pleasant outlook on the day and my life where I have hope in my heart and can see brighter days ahead. It has taken me 3 years to get to these moments of feeling almost “normal” existence. Which, normal is such a horrible word. My Mom said it best when she stated to me when I mentioned as a young child, “I just want to feel normal!” My wise mother said, “Oh sweetie, the only place you find normal is a setting on the dryer”. I have carried this with me and find it so true! We all have our very own normal and no two individual’s normal is the same.
I read a description comparison of depression in Doreen Virtue’s book- Assertiveness for Earth Angels, How to be loving instead of too nice. In this section of her book called Dark Night of the Soul, she explains that the Egyptians would use a process called “The Dark Night of the Soul where an Egyptian would go through their right of passage to become a High Priest or Priestess. Through this process, the Egyptian would be locked in a sarcophagus (like a coffin) for several days. You would be faced with your darkest demons (or thoughts) and some would die of panic and sheer terror while some would come through and make their way to being a Priest or Priestess. This just states how truly powerful our thoughts really are and how much control they have over us.
When I read this I thought this is what I am going through exactly! It has been a terrifying and eye opening experience for me and I have learned so much about myself. I was close many times to taking my own life. Not because I was weak, but because the darkness was too intense for too long and the weight that was carried with the depression was so strong that I didn’t feel that I could take one more breath, much less step without getting out of the sarcophagus.
What is helping me to get through this is:
1) A wonderful support system that does not judge me or lecture me on what I am not able to do right now and accepts when I need time alone and celebrates with me when I can do something. Not everyone has this, unfortunately. So if you are a friend of someone who is going through this, thank you for searching and helping your friend and having patience.
2) My wonderful counselor:
She and I are a great fit. She gives me a little push when I need it but respects where I am. I was comfortable finding a counselor that respected nature. Even when I go in her office I feel safe and grounded.
3) My Psychiatrist and my medications:
It’s hard for me to say that I have to take medications because that is something I am not “proud” of. But I am trying to love myself and respect that this is something I need to feel better. Some of us just have that darn chemical imbalance. The struggle with finding the right psychiatrist and the right medications is a very time consuming and tough process. Please be patient with someone who is going through this. I have never heard of someone finding the right meds their first try. I am still working on this with my Dr.
4) My Depression and Anxiety support group:
I strongly recommend when you feel able to do this. Go for it! It is so nice to meet with others that are going through something similar and can understand the feeling and the weight on you when you can’t get out of bed. I hope there is something for you in your area. Or join an online form if you can find a safe one that feels right to you. Know that you are not alone. I am sure you can bring just as much to the group as you can get from them. Just trust your intuition when you feel that the group no longer serves your higher purpose.
5) My Life Coach:
Wow, where would I be without this amazing soul? The Universe sent her to me in the perfect divine timing that I needed her. I have gone through meditations, learned new tools that seem to work with me on every level. She always knows just what to present to me to help me work on myself. She works with the law of attraction and energy. She is absolutely a life saver! Literally!
6) The books I’ve read:
I finally came to a place where I could read again after about 3 years of dark depression. In my darkest depression, all I could do was lay in bed and not get out and watch t.v. Or sleep for hours on end. I still have those days, but they are a little less frequent and not the whole month, rather just 2-3 weeks a month. Which is progress to me! I have a link at the top of the page that has a list of some books I found helpful for me. Take down some titles and head to Barnes and Nobles or your favorite book store and see what speaks to you. What may work for me will not necessarily work for you. Use your intuition and what feels right to you. Also, when reading I take what feels right with me when I read and I try my best to leave the rest. Every part of every book may not be meant for you. Just use your best judgment and trust your intuition.
I have a local Reiki practitioner who is absolutely amazing and has been a saving grace in my life! I felt an immediate connection with her and my life has been moving in wonderful directions since my first session. I highly recommend finding a Reiki practitioner that you can connect with and feel good about to help you on your journey. This has brought me so much more spiritual insight as well. It is an amazing journey!
This has been HUGE for me and my journey. All of these components seemed to come together in the right order just as the Universe has intended. I have learned so much through: breath work, guided meditations, reading about meditations, and my journey is far from being over! Which, is exciting!
My biggest challenge for myself:
Probably the biggest challenge for me is learning to love myself. This is my hardest hurdle for me to work through. I have come a long way, but I still have a long way to go. I need to be just as patient and kind with myself as I am with others when I am down; regardless of others expectations of me.
Accepting that, right now, I can’t do the things I used to do and that’s ok. I try my best to be where I am at in the now, and accept it for what it is and not try to change it as much as work with it and accept it.
My life coach said in a session: Does this feel upstream to you, or does this feel down stream?
I try to ask that of myself frequently with my thoughts and actions, even with my blog! This has been a great help for me and a simple thing that only takes a moment. I didn’t realize how upstream my life really was!
I send you love, light, and positive warm energy to surround you in your life every day. Please try and be open to the beauty, love, and good the Universe has to offer because you are more than worthy of all of these great things and more!